camelot_drabble

Author:

rottencreampuff
Title: I Miss Your Smile
Rating: pg-13
Pairing/s: Merlin/Arthur
Character/s: Merlin
Summary: Two years after Arthur Pendragon's suicide, Merlin gets nervous before he leaves his old town.
Warnings: mentions of suicide, and possibly angst if you would call it that
Word Count: 226
Prompt: Nervous
Author's Notes: oops sorry it was going to be happy but yeah...again it's kind of short but I accidentally forgot about this drabble prompt but I hope you guys like it!

The only feeling that Merlin Emrys could feel right now was pure nervousness. In fact, it was the only feeling that he could feel anymore. Most of the time he just felt…numb.

He bit his lip as he cleared his history and turned off the computer, and picked up his bag. In five minutes Merlin would be gone from this house. Hopefully for good. Too many painful memories resided here and Merlin just can’t take the daily reminder that Arthur was dead anymore.

It’s been two years since Arthur’s death. All of Merlin’s friends had given up on him, on trying to help him be happier and to just forget. But you cannot forget meeting the love of your life. He cannot forget that smile that often greeted him in the mornings. He missed Arthur so much it hurt.
What hurt even more was the fact of how Arthur had died. He remembered coming home from work in the afternoon. Seeing the stained letter with messy handwriting.

I’m sorry. I love you.

How could something like that have slipped by Merlin? Arthur seemed so happy…

Merlin tightly shut his eyes, tears threatening to fall out again. He racked out a few sobs and tightened his grip on the bag. It’s time to go. Time to leave this town, and his friends, and start a new life.