The Cruellest Month

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Author: archaeologist_d
Title: The Cruellest Month
Rating: PG-13 for language
Pairing/s: Arthur
Character/s: Merlin, Arthur
Summary: February was the cruellest month of all.
Warnings: none
Word Count: 225
camelot_drabble Prompt: #198 Valentine's Day Card.
Author's Notes: None
Disclaimer: I do not own the BBC version of Merlin; BBC and Shine do. I am very respectfully borrowing them with no intent to profit. No money has changed hands. No copyright infringement is intended.

Over the centuries, Merlin had fucked his way across Albion, taking countless lovers, young, old, male, female. Heated looks or shy smiles or payment gave way to bodies made for exploration, frenzied grunting beneath him, ecstasy spiralling up and up, erasing the bottomless grief in a moment's pleasure.

And when he was done, they faded to greys and dust, like ghosts in the mist. Ephemeral.

Then the craze for love swept through the nation, ignited by Valentines and flowers and sickeningly sweet cards. Candle-light and holding hands and soft kisses exchanged between loved ones.

Burying himself in willing bodies over the years, he'd grown adept at ignoring the despair lurking under his breast, at suppressing his hunger for sun-bright hair and those memory-blue eyes he'd lost eons ago. He'd deny it, but truth be told, he'd never had a moment's peace since he'd failed the man he loved. The ecstasy he'd bought had always been as false as painted smiles.

In his heart of hearts, he knew there would be no flowers drowning in scent or heart-shaped chocolates in his hands, no candles glowing as he exchanged expressions of endless devotion with Arthur.

Yet each year, in the cruellest month, on the cruellest day, he'd wait and hope and finally howl in despair when no card with Arthur's name on it came to his door.

Comments

[brunettepet.livejournal.com]

It makes me ache that Merlin finding fleeting, empty comfort with one person after another will never fill the hole in his heart and this may continue for centuries.

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I felt badly for Merlin that even if he found love in the long years, they'd die on him. :(
Glad you liked it.

[alx-diamond.livejournal.com]

Oh no. Oh nooooooo.

(Yes, this is perfect)

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I always thought it would be torture for those who don't have someone to be around Valentine's day.

[emrys_mk]

So emotional. Poor Merlin.

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much.

[merlocked18.livejournal.com]

this is heart-breaking *a curse on the Js, A CURSE!!!*

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

I know. The Js have much to answer for!

[dreammaidenn.livejournal.com]

Oww, I ache for Merlin, his life is so lonely and every love so fleeting it's sad :(

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. His life was pretty horrible once Arthur died.

[ajsrandom.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaangst. Aaaaah! Poor poor Merlin.

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! Glad you liked it.

[aeris444.livejournal.com]

Can I give Merlin a hug??? It's so sad... :-(

[archaeologist-d.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. :D